Welcome to the world of secrets. Of lies. Of broken dreams. The air is sweet, too sweet, as I fall. Or, am I rising? There is no weight, but my hair floats around, and above me. It ripples in the whiteness that I see. All that I see. White in front of me. White above me. White below. White behind. It seems I am forever falling, down, down, down. Rising, up, up, up.

It is warm. So wonderfully warm. I find myself closing my eyes. Letting the warmth soak into my body. I breath in. The sweet scent is getting stronger. It’s starting to hurt my lungs. The warmth is starting to get too warm. Too hot. I fight to breath in fresh air. The sweetness burns at my throat. At my nose. I try to hold my breath. My lungs scream in pain. My face scrunches in pain. My head aches.


Finally, when I cannot hold my breath any longer, I breath in. Long and deep. The sweetness has gone. The heat has cooled. My body relaxes. The pain numbs. Slowly, starting at my toes. It washes up my feet, my calves, knees, thighs, my bottom, my back and stomach. Up, up, up. It feels so cool. Like water. I look down. The whiteness has turned into a crystal blue. Small ripples drift away from my chest as I continue downwards. I lift my arms as the crystalline, cool water soak into me. Numbing my muscles. It reaches my lips. I hold my breath again.
My hair ripples in the waves. All around me. Like silk ribbons. I reach out and touch some. Soft. Dry. I’m still dry. Is this not water? I chance another breath. Fresh oxygen is pulled in. I look around. I hear a beeping. What is that?

It’s then that I see you. The way that I remember you. You are far away. Looking at me. Deep, green eyes staring. I blink. You are gone. I blink. You are standing behind me. You warm skin touching mine. Your fingers reach for mine. Entwining with my hand. My fingers. The beeping grows ever louder.

I feel your presence disappear for only another moment. Just to appear once again. Your arms wrapped around me. I feel your hot breath on my neck. One of your hands play with my hair. I feel your heart beat. I hear that beeping sound again. It’s getting louder. I can’t ignore it anymore. It’s invading all my thoughts. All the senses. I hear your voice. Only slightly.

Then the whiteness is gone. It’s replaced with dark. My hand whips up, slamming it on the corner of my night stand. Pain shoots up my arm as I throw the other at the alarm clock. My hand fumbles for a moment, looking for the snooze button. The beeping stops. I sigh. I was so close this time. So close to hearing your voice in my ear once more.

I feel tears escape my eyes. I shut them. The hot liquid streaming down my face as I remember. I remember everything. A scream echoing down quiet halls. A thud as I fall to my knees. Numbness soaking through to my thoughts. To everything around me. People grabbing at me. Holding me. As everything turns to pain. As every moment we had is lost forever.

As the love that I had for you streams down from my eyes.

And as I slowly begin to learn how to let you go.


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Hope you enjoyed it <3

gave me shivers, it is so well written